nethaniaelaine

My husband doesn't know I feel this way

And I don’t know if I want to tell him b/c it’ll make me seem selfish cause I want to support any decision he makes. (But I probably should) But in all honesty, him wanting to separate from the airforce after his 4 years is done SCARES THE CRAP OUTTA ME! And I have my reasons, but for the most part we just aren’t and WON’T be prepared by the time that rolls around. If he re-enlisted for another 4yrs or even just extended his contract out another 2yrs maybe we’d be more prepared and be able to plan it out better. But with it creeping up on us in 15 months and with nursing school, a newborn, and other things on our plates there’s hardly any time to really sit down and plan it (hell we hardly have time to plan out the vacation we want to take for the holidays). But if that’s what he wants to do (even though in my opinion its not the wisest decision), I’ll support him and we’ll find some way to make it work. I just hope his decision( IF that’s what he really wants to do) doesn’t bite us in the ass and fuck us over. =| =/ O_o Well that’s all. Just a random vent. G’nite tumblrheads.